I Work

This is me. This is what I am going to do now. I work. I do not date. I do not go out. I work. I take care of my kids. I work. I try to remember to eat. I do my laundry. I work. I pay my bills. I balance my checkbook. I work.

Did I expect to be like this? No - of course not. Are there worse things that could happen? Hell yeah. Strange to say I am lucky to work two jobs, but it is true. I try to find positives where I can.

The negative I can't spin in any way is I get to spend less time with the kids. Their mom is almost angry about it. I cannot tell if she is upset that I won't see them as much, or that my need to work more cuts into her time away from the kids. Splitting up is hell. How do you balance a new life with the old? I miss seing my boys every day. And now I see them even less. This was a difficult thing to do. I try to find positives where I can, but there are none here.

At least I can work. This is what I can do.